Won't Say It Again

I sensed I would be here
I guessed this day would come
I wouldn't see her
I wouldn't be the one
I'd fucking jinx it
I would want it too much
then I would blink
and be shit out of luck.
Do you know it's too bad?
It was something I wanted
and something I had
if just for a moment
Thank God I'm a grown up
and so I cannot feel pain
do as you will
do as you want to
I will come back again.

But I already offered
and I think I heard what you said.
If you ever wanted,
sorry won't say it again.

You don't have to say where,
but will you ever say when?
If you ever wanted,
sorry, won't say it again.

Staycation

Low hope
saves energy
bet small
on what won't be
keep an eye out for jealous gods
keep Jesus in you heart
keep your fingers crossed.


[Cold comfort
but you knew the score
from the time she sat down
her eyes were on the door
before you spoke a word
she'd heard it all before
you never were the one
you were just one more]